Wednesday, March 02, 2005
wednesday - 020305 -
its mah fault.
i never want it to be.
i play too much.
i joke too much.
in a result.
i lost all.
maybe u hav given up.
i am still dangling there.
my hope is fading fast.
i won give up.
but.
i m really tired.
avoiding.
strangers.
i have given you nightmares.
i am sorry.
erase me off ur memory.
if that will make u happier.
u r one of the pieces of my puzzle.
that i cant afford to lose.
its mah thinking.
i am naive.
i give you back your freedom.
now that u r free.
u will live happier.
i respect ur decision.
unwillingly.
i am left with no choice.
in the middle of breaking down.
i cant stop.
i continue to dwell on it.
its impossible.
not to think about it.
i hav tried. HARD.
to you.
i probably seem.
i dun care.
but.
i care.
i really care.
what about you.
i felt - words jus couldnt describe -
perhaps.
its meant to be.
its showing me something.
i keep everything inside mahself.
u can say.
i will burst like a balloon.
maybe i will.
maybe i will just rot.
none noes my ending.
its me.
me.
me.
send guidance from above i pray.
left alone.
BANGBANG