Sunday, July 31, 2005
THANK GOD I FOUND YOU;*
holy smokes.
condolences.
today had cg meeting.
make up cg meeting.
thought will end bout 1.
surprisingly.
it ended bout 12.
however.
it did not end for me.
for N28 and W298.
spiritual hunger.
be it boys or girls.
cried buckets.
i felt hopeless.
i just.
wanted to cry out to GOD.
(:
another day tml.
hais.
is that a spiritual breakthrough.
or rather.
nightmare begins.
...
but still.
thank god i found you.
i was lost without you.
hah.
(:
BANGBANG
Saturday, July 30, 2005
YO(:
im back larhs.
lols.
hmms.
busy whole week.
wo de tian arh~
TODAY.
hehs.
u noe wad.
i screamed in church.
YEAH.
CHURCH.
haas.
i scream.
i shout.
i cry.
i was like a mad kid.
shouting like nobody's business.
(:
i took a step of faith.
went up.
a sister prayed for me.
my.
it worked wonders.
i duno how and duno why.
i just started screaming.
i started coughing.
lols.
i feel cleansed.
i feel no shame. (:
i dont regret going for 2 services.
spending more hours for church.
rev. mike connell rawks.
my sisters rawk.
my brothers rawk.
harvesters rawk.
i love THAT sister.
thank you (:
the warmth.
after hugging sister after sister. (:
THAT sister actually knew what i'm thinking.
she told me what she knew.
wahs.
i was dumbfounded.
and yeah.
tears came. (:
goodbye devil.
thou i know one devil is out.
seven devils are surrounding.
fret not.
bring it on.
im basked in the glory of GOD.
haas.
im so holy ehs.
lols.
at least.
dats wad i feel right now.
:D
exciting horhs.
lols.
xDD
hmms.
i know u wont bother to come and see this anymore.
but i just type it out.
can see you decide to move on.
given the gestures and actions you tried.
yeah. im here to say. i get it.
(:
if u have moved on.
all the best. (:
greater power comes greater responsiblities.
(:
since nothing started.
then let nothing ends. (:
pathes crossed.
and never met.
when will be the day they meet.
it may come.
it may not.
you are something.
to you.
im nothing. (:
my sunshine. (:
AIK SONG-
lols.
really paisehh lehhs.
THANK YOU (:
public thank you.
lols.
honoured anot.
:D
AIWOAINI (:
BANGBANG
Monday, July 25, 2005
250705-
today.
haas.
erms.
SC BURFDAY CELEBRATION (:
wee~
thanks clarence (:
good asst head i have. :D
haas.
today.
i am so brave.
lols.
i use highlighter hit pengxiang.
ms kwek ask.
we wan to kill each other arh.
LOL.
he not gentleman one.
use newspaper hit me.
lols.
BUT HENG.
nvr aim properly. =P
ok lahs.
at least he didnt hit me.
as much as i do. (:
LOL. IM VIOLENT. (:
AHH BU;
you know how i feel now.
it isnt that simple.
but neway.
who understands shirley.
even she herself dun know who she is.
if i said anything hurtful.
im sorry.
i dont mean it.
now that things have gone so wrong.
i know.
we cannot U-turn.
if i write.
if i say.
and it ends up being redundant.
den.
i rather keep it to myself.
(:
care. or dont care.
it doesnt matter i guess.
i know the ans thou.
takes a lifetime to build a friendship.
but takes a min to break it.
cheng zhang de tong ku.
ye shi you dai jia.
moments.
ba ta wang le bah.
so near. yet so far.
BANGBANG
Thursday, July 21, 2005
210705-
to me.
something did go wrong.
hmms.
tml got phy test.
siann-
open notes test.
interesting. (:
past few days.
busy lorhs.
hehs.
tml.
promotion test.
piang ehh.
now practising mamaras.
i sound so weird.
=x
i suddenly duno wad to blog.
hmms.
okays.
i guess i go. (:
just let it go.
BANGBANG
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
190705.
YO (:
hmms.
turning back -
160705-
something happened.
tears came (:
170705-
nothing much lorhs.
cell group meeting.
haas. nice (:
180705 -
ehhs.
shuang larhs.
jus that my studies.
hmms. jia you lorhs.
im going to make it (:
XINNI -
thank me arhs.
WELCOME (:
who ask you nvr go in lehhs.
LOL.
:D
190705 -
haas.
phototaking*
its the time of the year again :D
3e3 rawks can!
u cant imagine how creative we are. (:
our fun shot. LOL.
we include an UMBRELLA.
farnie larhs.
and yeahh. im loving it. (:
i sit in front lorhs.
short le larhs.
nvm lorhs.
get to sit beside mdm lye. (:
sat beside KHAMISAH!
hehs. NICE LARH.
i confirm will buy the photos :D
den lessons.
hmms.
nothing muchh.
after schh.
phototaking*
(:
HYSC 2K5*
xinni was so funny.
she more gan cheong den me.
LOL.
she keep adjusting my tie.
but of cos.
make me look neater marhs.
haas. i love her can.
she rawks ok. (:
den arhs.
FUN SHOT. xDD
tis is so cool can.
LOL.
i took out my blazer.
gave it to xinni!
LOL. nice marh :D
den i pull ronald to take with me.
i jus enjoyed it SO MUCH (:
hmms.
den red cross phototaking.
tis year. got fun shot.
LOL. nice oso larhs. (:
but u know. i know.
i look ugly in rc uni derh. :D
im still awkward larhs.
lols.
AMANDA/ MICHELLE *
you good.
i good.
everybody good.
LOL :D
CLEO*
i know you wont see this derh.
LOL.
thanks for your prayer (:
hmms.
HAPPEH BURFDAE STEVEN (:
3e3 rawks.
xiao revolution 2005 (:
and she goes.
WEE~
you just never seem to see.
afterall.
it jus came without warning (:
BANGBANG
Friday, July 15, 2005
yuan fang (:
hmms.
today.
nothing much.
haas.
went home early.
rest.
yar.
sounds crappy eh.
perhaps.
im right.
things took a drastic turn.
things are not the same.
i never view the same way again.
paths never met.
perhaps.
we both let go.
i thought it will turn better.
but no.
im wrong.
so near yet so far.
blank stares.
i guess.
i have to get used to it.
i just have to.
hah.
more blahhs coming (:
i have alot in mind.
but decided not to blog it out.
i have so much to say.
but in the end.
i guess.
it doesnt matter to you.
i hanged on dearly.
i swallowed.
AHH.
erased.
BAH.
BANGBANG
Wednesday, July 13, 2005
NI BU ZAI;
rawks lahs. (:
erms today.
lols.
nothing much.
stress lar.
nvm (:
mr wong came to look for me.
whoa.
im still in ELDDS.
nvm lor.
got performance.
=.=?!
BAH-
erm.
got phy. remedial.
roxanne rawks lar. (:
hehs.
went to look for mr wong.
he not there.
went up.
saw ken.kai xian. chin how. eugene.
yar lor.
den i went down again.
i went up again.
lols.
nvm. BLUR-
den ask some stuff lar.
hehs.
eugene and kai xian went home.
i ask chin how to teach a maths lar.
he always say. leng leng arh~
walaos. whack you arh. LOL.
den somehow.
talk until somewhere.
i was the one talking.
LOL.
their ears rotting lar.
for like 2 hrs lor.
LOL.
6.40 den ken say.
whoa.
so late liao arh.
talk on the way lar.
later we kena locked inside sch. LOL.
den crapped with them lar.
they rawk can.
im so rubbistic lar.
lols.
my story nice mahs.
:D
more blahhs coming arh.
HOMEWORK-
seems you dont mind either.
but im the one who started it fers.
cant blame.
(:
HEHS.
im moving ON (:
BANGBANG
Monday, July 11, 2005
SO YESTERDAY;
as things ran through my mind.
tears came down.
i cant help it.
normal day.
with two tests.
bombarded with homework and revision.
it might be a good thing too.
i just want to do well.
think back.
it has been a long time.
since i went mad.
tears just seem to rush down.
things came crashing.
let it go.
BANGBANG
Sunday, July 10, 2005
blahh.
today arh.
woke up at 7am.
despite of my sickness.
of cos lar.
my husband more impt.
:D
ey. dun think slant.
is xinni kay. LOL.
fers time woke up so early.
normally i wake up bout 8am.
(:
wore sch uniform.
lols.
i feel v weird.
everybody all looking at me.
as i came down frm my hse.
dey are giving me looks like.
" wah. this mei mei arh. wear sch uni
bluff mama go out with friends is it"
=.=.
lols.
walked to jurong spring cc.
eh.
i was early.
lols.
den saw mdm lye.
yi liang. me. sing ye.
helped her lorhs.
set up our booth.
haas.
erm yeahhs.
den many people come lorhs.
got fuhua peeps too.
saw JIA YU.
WEE~
my netball friend.
GA or GS derhs.
pro de ok. (:
haas. nice hairstyle u got dere worhs.
saw erm.
farhanah!
paisehh. if i spell ur name wrongly arhs.
lols. she kena pester by me. LOL.
until khamisah came. xD
wahahas~
walked ard lorhs.
fun! (:
den smth happen lorhs.
xinni noes.
(:
peeps who saw arh.
its not wad u all think lar.
den.
had a private talk with xinni.
haas. (:
yeahh lorhs.
bored lar.
went to yee shian's hse.
LOL.
walaos.
her singing.
go superstar le lahhs.
(:
went jp after dat.
lols.
went to look for 3B chin guide.
dun have.
dots.
no choice lorhs.
went home.
lols.
btw arhs.
i saw the person who called me at jp.
the gap camper.
lols.
drenched in the rain.
i love the rain lar.
:D
still sick.
mus revise my sciences and maths!
(:
another busy week awaiting.
lols.
i will still say the same.
so yesterday.
(:
BANGBANG
Saturday, July 09, 2005
its been a long week.
toturous one. lols.
with wad.
homework lar.
and tests.
friday.
WHOA.
in schh.
haas.
mdm lye found me in toilet.
sweating in pain.
lols.
went home.
didnt take 2 tests.
haiyar.
mon hav to mahs.
still the same. =x.
whoa.
pain. fever.
went to take a rest.
but i knew i cannot rest long.
when i got smth to do arh.
i cannot slp in peace one.
lols.
so i quickly went to the library.
yarhs.
climbed the overhead bridge.
lols.
with my heavy bag.
:D
rushed back to sch.
with the research and all.
dey say.
dateline postpone to next mon.
nvm lar.
at least its done. (:
den to and fro lor.
went out to look at red cross.
den went bck class.
yeahs.
long week.
honestly.
im stressed. (:
haiyar.
who isnt.
:D
today.
still not feeling well either.
went to church.
haas.
saw lihao.
LOL.
i thought he got church de marhs.
:D
yeahs.
discussed with xinni bout tml.
lols.
my duty starts at 12.
i go there bout 8.
LOL. :D
i love it (:
thats yours.
i should return.
hope your card is working.
cos arh.
the machine is abit siao.
keep jamming.
if that is.
now. it will mean.
i have no trust in you.
and hey.
do you want a friend that dont trust you.
no.
(:
dunno if ur nick is for me neway.
i guess not.
just curious. haas.
i learn.
i believe.
you'll be happier someday.
CAUSE*
if its over.
let it go.
who knows.
come tomorrow.
it will seem.
so yesterday*
u said.
if i drop.
drop with happiness.
but i know.
i can never be happy.
i drop.
but somehow.
im sad.
BLAH.
it just so.
so contradicting.
laugh it off.
and let it go.
i believe you will happier this way. (:
BANGBANG
Saturday, July 02, 2005
today.
after church.
went to jp alone.
hmms.
saw a guy with his two friends.
den i thought wad.
suddenly he ask.
" u are the gap camp one hor? "
smth liddat.
i was shocked lahs. lols.
cos he not in my grp derh.
den. i didnt expect him to remember.
yarh.
gap camper. (:
still remembered.
when i went out and took the award.
haas.
yup.
so. yarhs.
im so bottled up right now.
tears are waiting to flow.
now i can see.
now i know.
i give up.
i shld jus erase.
wad for hold on.
i dont want to know anymore.
i know i am blur.
i tend to do wrong.
because of my problems.
friends come and go.
but while you are angry.
wont you jus take a look back at me.
i am trying.
but i know.
how hard i try.
im not able to catch up.
now.
i dont know.
i guess.
i have not found myself yet.
im sorry.
if i've been a nightmare.
instead of being a good companion.
i just leave.
BANGBANG