Saturday, August 27, 2005
hey
im back (:
im worn out this week.
i am just hanging on.
by the thread.
homeworks.
remedials.
my god.
my IC.
i never do.
ytd deadline.
lols.
i called over.
thank god.
i can do by next week.
my week is.
homework.
remedials.
no com.
hysc.
i didnt do my IC.
cause.
i needed to get stuff from JP.
lol. not my stuff la.
but for the council (: .
i even skip my cca.
but i have no intention of lying.
i really wanted to make my IC.
was planning to do it after buying.
but found out.
i have no time la.
time flies.
so ytd.
i thought.
perhaps i ask zhi xian to come.
ps arh.
he not in my com.
but i still ask.
glad dat he agreed.
cos im not able to carry everything on my own.
yep.
he is not feeling good.
or rather.
both of us are.
so yeah.
silence.
we came to liberty market.
actually.
everything was planned.
wad to buy. and all.
but i found out.
it cannot work out.
cos.
when we have our meeting.
the prices are not exact.
so hmm.
i plan everything again.
running around
in the market.
like. siao cha bor.
(:
spent quite some time dere.
zhi xian was in charge of the money la.
lols.
den bought one set fers.
to see how much money lor.
zhi xian was. -.-?
wad u doing.
lols.
why nvr buy everything at one go.
lols. cos i gong ma.
later exceed i die lerh.
the people at the market were.
giving those puzzled looks.
the two buy so much at one go.
having grand party arh.
lols.
hmms.
calculated.
den i go buy ribbon.
he need to watch over the trolley ma.
bought ler meet him at B1.
we have a trolley of bags.
so i say.
we take out the bags lor.
put the trolley back.
he say.
nvm la.
got trolley wad.
den he pushed the trolley.
up to the escalator.
yes.
the common ones in the shopping centres.
not the flat one to the carpark. =s.
pro la he.
den we came out near the 7-11.
walk until the pet station there.
he say.
lets go back.
-.-.?
the trolley put there can liao.
..
lols.
i force him put back.
he say.
sometimes u r too nice.
oso not good.
LOL?
because he is the one pushing ma.
=D
den i stood there to look after the 9 bags.
lols. alot right.
=D
after like one min.
he came back.
so fast?!
he say.
of cos la.
he oso nvr go back liberty and put.
den i was. OMG?
he say.
haiya.
near the taxi stand.
there is trolley collection.
LOL.
at least.
he nvr anyhow throw la.
=DD
went back school.
blah. skip.
wrap the ____.
=DD
lols.
we nvr buy enough wrapper leh.
zhi xian was right.
=x .
my accuracy not good der.
me. fs. xinni do der.
v nice ok.
lols. no la.
but presentable.
(:
then we did the cards.
yeahh (:
went to have tuition.
lols.
went back at 11.
didn eat.
jus bath and slept.
(:
really must thank zhi xian la.
such a good junior.
mr lee scared i kena robbed.
-.-. LMAO?
but i understand.
cos.
alot ma.
lols.
thank you zhi xian (:
you made my job easier.
and a great help too (:
thanks xinni and fs.
lols.
i panicked.
when i couldnt find the letter.
for IC der.
lols.
thanks xinni.
she was there.
to calm me down la.
u rawk la!
HUGS (:
u say u busy.
i dont mind.
i can do it on my own.
u need to go where.
cannot do.
i dont mind.
i was more of.
disappointed.
rather than angry.
what i saw.
it jus totally hit me.
i dont know what to say.
what u treat me as.
who am i to you.
u left me with a dead end.
im nothing lor.
u say u busy.
i dont wan disturb u lor.
i rather carry everything on myself.
than complain.
isn't this understanding.
u mean ur busy is.
say u got this got that.
u nvr do.
saw u in the classroom.
i feel i did my best liao lor.
im speechless.
i duno wad i can say.
im not angry for u not coming.
im disappointed for.
i've been understanding.
only to see what i didnt expect.
i feel like crying la.
i did my best.
can u see how hard.
im trying.
i duno la.
i wan to scream out loud la.
ended up.
im jus a fool.
(:
so much for.
me and you doing together.
so much for involving you.
tell me to involve you.
u busy.
its so so contradicting.
i wish i can talk.
but i DONT KNOW how.
i seriously dont know.
teachers' day.
(:
things change.
i didnt see it coming.
now i do.
i just want to blog wad i feel.
no war intention.
BANGBANG
Friday, August 19, 2005
went bck sch today.
though.
im on MC.
=x.
haas.
i hear RC peeps say.
double promotion.
wee.
im sergent.
=D
hmms.
did smth.
SC stuff.
lols.
went to get smth frm opp.
with zhi xian and yan jie.
zhi xian poor thing arh.
his finger swollen until. =x.
i duno whard to say.
haas.
dun be lazy arh.
mus remember to put.
the duno whard.
green colour thing.
=D
liddat lor.
lols.
tml.
tuition.
haas.
still feeling dizzy.
hmms.
round and round.
its time for you to break away.
for me to move on.
lols.
the importance not there la.
so wont be sad la horhs.
my life. my choice.
tis choice.
not that i want to.
but i have to.
being friends with me arh.
is u dao mei.
lol.
somemore know me for so long.
ps arh.
i nvr give any good memories.
but more of nightmares la arhs.
hope from now.
dun hav le la.
people say i come in between.
now no me liaos.
everything is okay ler.
im a terminator.
lols.
im not a friend that you can depend on.
was teling zhi xian.
how useless this exco is.
lols.
lucky he not in my com arhs.
(:
thats all bah.
round and round we go.
one big world (:
ainihenhao (:
wo kan dao de yong yuan.
bu shi yong yuan.
wo gei de bu duo.
wo zhi xi wang.
nikuailejiuhao (:
goodbye (:
if one day.
BANGBANG
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
bah.
not feeling well.
=x.
blahblahblah.
hmms.
junyang =D
lols.
all the songs he sang.
i have some of dem.
=DD
v nice lor.
bon HOR.
(:
lols.
erms.
happeh burfday. (:
ur 3rd wish.
may it come true.
haas.
weknoweknow.
nods head* (:
sad dat derrick is out.
but nvm!
he will be back. =D
going for NS soon yeah.
lols.
im sure his fans will wait for him der.
jia you! =D
i cant wait to hear kelly's performance.
haas.
im neutral la.
lols.
jus wish all of dem the best (:
but honestly.
jun yang did well today.
clapclap* (:
project superstar.
hehs.
heaven knows is a nice song.
haas. (:
" if i love her,
i should let her go.
if she comes back.
i'll know she's mine."
hmms.
interesting yeah.
lols.
can change the HER to HIM.
vice versa ma.
(:
behind the smiles.
im feeling like.
fingers running through the razor blade.
not hatred.
lols.
jus sad la.
jun yang (:
be happy.
EVRERYDAY.
he romantic horhs.
lols.
taken frm project superstar web.
he was asked. what song he know/sing best.
he said. love is simple - the song.
he wants to sing THAT song to the girl he loves.
hmms.
nice horhs.
(:
thats my opinion niah horhs.
if u dun think the same way.
den nvm lorhs (:
hmms.
got into the audition.
busier than usual.
i end here.
(:
aihenjiandan (:
BANGBANG
Tuesday, August 16, 2005
hmms.
im back.
lols.
today is 160805.
lols. =x
recalling-
150805; monday
erms.
lols.
newspaper duty as usual.
sc meeting during afternoon.
waited for ronald.
hmms.
met him at the canteen.
the mcs are discussing lorhs.
i was bored.
went out lors.
get smth to eat.
saw zhi xian and kim choo.
den chatted =D
they went home.
i went back sch.
hmms.
den hear dem discuss lors.
after a while.
me and ronald went to the pond dere.
lols.
talk a while.
den they wan to go home lerh.
den we oso wan to go home lor.
but hor.
smth happened..
i lost my bag.
LOL.
the one i carry der.
i was. OMG?
hmms.
dat time was bout.
ehs. 6 plus.
LOL.
den i go IT resource rm.
dun have lehs.
i went staff rm.
look for mr lee.
instead.
saw ms toh.
she say.
why so late haven go home?
i say.
z. find my bag. lost.
in the end..
ms toh and ronald.
help me find.
ms toh take keys frm GO.
IT resource rm 3.
z. i told her wrongly.
shld be rm 2.
she went down again. =x.
i went classroom.
DONT HAVE.
lols.
den i panic.
ronald was holding the piglet.
=D
hmms.
den i think lorhs.
den..
!!!
i remember la.
LOL.
i haven check.
the class where i coach the students.
for self-study.
=DD
i went..
mrs goh was ard to give me the key.
*PHEW*
i saw my BAG!
lols.
u can see the wide smile.
of cos la.
lols.
inside all my workshts leh.
if lost.
i die terribly. =x.
haas.
den i told ronald.
eh.
piglet my lucky star horhs.
=D
den went home.
saw ms toh!
den walked with her.
(:
went to bus stop.
ronald v funny siah.
u noe wad he do.
at fers.
we having meeting at IT resource.
in between.
i jus lie my head on the table lor.
den ronald.
i duno wad he do.
he take the -godnoeswad-
and comb my hair. -.-.
its smth like a toothbrush.
LOOKS like. but dun hav the bristles la.
he used that.
and comb piglet.
DOT leh.
frm meeting until bus stop.
he still got that -brush-
me and ms toh --"
hehs.
went home late lor.
bout 7 plus ahs.
all becos i forgetful lorhs.
hence.
i mus really thank them leh!
thank you ronald and ms toh (:
ni men HEN HAO LEH.
=DD
btw arhs.
piglet horhs.
are given by my friends (:
jun kiat.bon.wei jie.jaslyn.jamie.
xie xie (:
not only piglet.
every bday wish.
every bday hug.
every blessing.
every bday present.
big or small.
every bday sms.
and THAT surprise.
10:25 am
i want to thank all of you properly.
THANK YOU (:
OH YAH.
bday testimonials.
i jus saw dem today (:
nice and heartening.
THANK YOU (:
xiexienimen.
ytd common test.
confirm fail. (:
today.
i found out.
we got into the audition.
malumalumalu. tsk.
thats all i can say lorhs.
ok la.
tml got a maths assessment test.
z.
functions.
more z.
atleastthereasonisknown(:
BANGBANG
Monday, August 15, 2005
what for.
what for to hold on.
when nothing mattered.
what for.
when im just an extra.
what for.
when im not needed.
what for.
when i know.
what for.
when the ending is known.
what for.
to struggle in and out.
when i know.
when we know.
things are blatantly obvious.
i mean.
whats mine.
even if its lost someday.
it will be mine someday.
somehow.
but whats not mine.
no matter how i try.
i know.
there's not a need to ask.
i thought it over.
im like spoiling the happiness of everyone.
without me.
life will definitely be much better.
much more comfortable.
i will be sad.
im not strong enough to watch the ending.
but what can i do.
not much of a choice.
i have nothing to lose.
there is nothing to start.
nothing starts.
nothing ends.
nothing at all.
reality.
i face it.
BANGBANG
Saturday, August 13, 2005
im here to say.
im touched.
really.
thanks(:
audrey.
roxanne.
richie.
khamisah.
shu juan.
jaslyn.
jamie.
all my classmates who wished me.
julaiha.
feez.
yong xing papa.
xinni.
rachel.
thanks (:
mr lee.
ms toh.
sis ruxin.
julette.
tina.
jing shen.
jia jun.
shen hong.
cleo.
all my spiritual friends.
to all:
i am touched.
words cant say enough.
nor words can express.
yeah.
im crying.
but thats tears of joy.
(:
presents.
big or small.
i like them all.
cleo.
thanks.
thanks for ur hug.
(:
its a warm bday present.
really. (:
thank you.
really.
thank you.
i swear.
dey are all from the bottom.
of my heart.
tml.
i blog a long and proper one.
but i want to say.
right here.
on my burfday.
i love 3e3.
i love xiao revolution.
i love my spiritual friends.
i love my friends.
i love.
everyone.
and i love YOU too. (:
i thank GOD.
u all.
are gifts from GOD.
thanks.
you NI MEN duo HAO. (:
BANGBANG
Friday, August 12, 2005
yo.
im back.
haas.
bout one hr later.
im going to be 15.
lol.
old liao.
now things are running through my mind.
things that left unsaid.
undone.
unspoken.
i cant let them go.
i just couldnt.
leave them all behind.
they are just a part of my life.
through one year;
hahs.
many happened.
this year.
im stressed out.
totally.
hahs.
yeahs. cries often.
but.
there are smiles here and there.
which led me out of darkness.
my family;
i've seen thoroughy.
till now i still wonder.
do my parents love me.
as much like my sister.
lols.
im sad la.
BUT.
i love all my friends out there.
who have helped me survive through.
i leave the rest for tml to say.
haa.
my thank you speech la. (:
sing to myself.
(:
haas.
update later. (:
leave for 13 aug.
lols.
=D
wang zhe ni.
tu ran yi zhen XIN TONG.
wo zou bu kai la.
hais.
even though i pretend.
that i was gone.
you are always be in my heart la.
BANGBANG
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
fcuk la.
im so vulgar now can.
irresponsible.
you are just so.
full of nonsense.
im so bored la.
tml got phy conference la.
so many hw la.
so many tests la.
i wan to go tuition la.
hais.
everything changes la.
zzz
head big big la.
anyway.
happy 40th burfday to singapore.
i love singapore la.
reach out for the skies (:
z la.
ainiaiwo la.
BANGBANG
Saturday, August 06, 2005
untitled;
I open my eyes
I try to see try to see but I'm blinded by the white light
I can't remember how
I can't remember why
I'm lying here tonight
And I can't stand the painAnd I can't make it go awayNo I can't stand the painHow could this happen to meI've made my mistakes I've got no where to runThe night goes onAs I'm fading awayI'm sick of this lifeI just wanna screamHow could this happen to meEverybody's screaming
I try to make a sound
but no one hears me
I'm
slipping off the edgeI'm
hanging by a threadI wanna start this over again
So I try to hold onto a time when
nothing matteredAnd I can't explain what happened
And I can't erase the things that I've doneNo I can't
How could this happen to me I've made my mistakesI've got no where to run The night goes on As I'm fading awayI'm sick of this life I just wanna scream How could this happen to meI've made my mistakes I've got no where to run The night goes onAs I'm fading away I'm sick of this lifeI just wanna scream How could this happen to mebehind these hazel eyes;
Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tallI used to be so strongYour arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces Can't deny it, can't pretend Just thought you were the one Broken up, deep insideBut you won't get to see the tears I cryBehind these hazel eyesI told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of meIs what I pretend to beSo together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Swallow me then spit me out For hating you,
I blame myselfSeeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
Here I am, once again I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes
i dont know how.
and i dont know why.
i know.
i brought upon this.
not a need to apologise to me.
for.
its my wrongdoing.
now.
here; tear me into pieces.
here; erase me like how you clean the whiteboard a total white.
here; delete me like how you press the delete button
u dont have to reply me.
with a unwilling heart.
(:
shirley is useless.
shirley is sadistic.
shirley is selfish.
shirley is petty.
shirley is bad.
shirley scuks;
tears descended.
and no.
i cant make it go away.
060805.
BANGBANG