Saturday, June 24, 2006
hi!
hmm.
xing fu bu shi bi ran de.
(:
well well.
lets see.
june holidays are almost over.
my god man.
so much to do.
so little time.
zz.
shirley arh shirley.
always so lazy.
how many tomorrow you want?!
* shakes head *
zz.
cannot liao.
i must motivate myself.
seriously.
as people always say.
time FLIES.
just a blink of an eye;
sec 4 life is soon to be over.
just few more months.
just few more months...blahblahblah.how?sometimes.knowing too much isnt good.agree?well.
living in denial is another issue.
if knowing too much hurts;
why bother to know?
whether you know or dont.
fate bahs.
nope.
im not giving in to fate.
just that some things in life.
you just have to go along with it.
agree anyone?
this month.
i get to know few friends much better.
ohs. i talked to harshali! (:
looking forward to next may. haas. :D
hmms. she left for india today..
bon voyage girl! (:
hmms. lemme see.
kai xian.
heh hehs. u reading this? (:
i have nvr really talked to her.
even thou i knew her bck in sec2.
perhaps not close.
but i got to know her much better.
at least. she's not that distant from me!
* GRINS *
hope this can carry on --> closer friends(:
hey girl!
i value ur time being there with me!
all the best for upcoming exams yeah(:
i suddenly feel super blessed.
i have friends/family.
i am really.really fortunate.
of course.
i value the time of everyone!
esp those ( youknowwho) who were there.
when i was vv down.
again.
they might not see this.
its ok.(:
>3 all of you! (:
again.
* xing fu bu shi bi ran de *
: D
cham liao.
nvr revise dao.
diediedie.
* prays *
AHHHHHHH.
ppl.
enjoy the last day (sunday).
after sunday.
hard work ppl! (:
hehs.
tml cut short hair.
goodbye to long hair!
lol.
new beginning?
hope so. (:
random:IF its true.den i must say.u hid it v well. afterall.some things are BEST not to be spoken.even if i ask.what will be the truth.what will be the lie.well.the answer is for you to know.for me to find out. (: randomrandom. i've got weird thoughts. (: if u know. u know.if u dont. its ok(:understand? (:CIAO! (x
BANGBANG
Wednesday, June 21, 2006
im tagged. LOL. :D
I have been tagged by kerina to do this!
Rules: Do the following without complains. Choose five people to do this after you have completed yours. Leave a tag on the person's tagboard to say he/she has been tagged... And start your post by 'i have been tagged' then do this:"
Your 10 favourites
Favourite Colours: orange/green/black/white/blue
Favourite Food: erm. anything edible? :X
Favourite Songs: hmms. those meaningful one bahs.
Favourite Movies: I not stupid too?
Favourite Sports: ball games/swimming
Favourite Season: s'pore oso no season derh. LOL? hmms. winter. (:
Favourite Day of the Week: friday!
Favourite Ice Cream Flavour: chocomint : D
Favourite Countries: i've nvr travelled before. oh well. ehs. singapore/austrailia
Favourite Things: notes/cards that i recieved from friends.
Your 9 currents
Current Mood: empty bahs. neither happy nor sad.
Current Clothes: jeans n t-shirt.
Current Desktop: ehs. i duno. :X
Current Toe Nail colour: normal. LOL.
Current Time: 10.23pm
Current Annoyance:O'levels. hw. friends.
Current Thoughts:plenty. pretty mixed.
Current Song: nan peng you - jun yang.
Current "Chatter": none.
Your 8 firsts
First Best Friend: back in pri sch(:
First Crush: back in pri sch. young kid then (:
First Movie: ehs. my mum said it was the Red Lion. LOL?
First Piercing: hmms. last yr. now close lerh. long story. :X
First Lie: long long ago. xDD
First Music: happy burfday? (:
First car: hmms. i dun owe any car. even toy car. LOL.
First Cry: 13 august 1990.
Your 7 lasts
Last Cigarette: nah. i dun smoke.
Last Drink: milk tea. (:
Last Car Ride: bus 187.
Last Crush: ehs. sec sch bahs.
Last Movie seen: erh. I not stupid too bahs. :X
Last Phone Call: eh. eileen.
Last CD Played: none.
Your 6 Have you evers
Have you ever date one of your bestfriend: nah. lols.
Have you ever broken the laws: ehs. jaywalk? :X
Have you ever been arrested: 0.0. no la.
Have you ever been on TV: nope.
Have you ever kiss some one that u dont know: o.0. nope. maybe when i was small bahs. (:
5 things that you are wearing: specs/t-shirt/jeans/you know i know. :X
4 things you done today: eat/bathe/tuition/went to xinni's hse
3 things you heard right now: my mum opening letter/music/dad's footsteps.
2 things you cannot live without: friends/family
Things you do when u are bored: music/read/daydream.
WANTED LIST:
ehs.
anyone who sees this?
(:
woots! im done : DD
BANGBANG
Sunday, June 18, 2006
back.
feeling v lousy now.
holidays passing fast.
soon it will be prelims.
few more months.
O levels.
graduation day will come as well.
as we go on. we remember.
how many people had entered in my life.
how many stayed.
how many left.
i wish i can take all of you with me.
but reality stops me.
thats how reality works.
time.
how things change with time.
the past.
the present.
the unknown future.
the classroom filled with laughter.
the vacant classroom.
distance.
so near yet so far.
i thought.
after a honest talk.
everything will just be fine.
but no.
why it was just quarrel after quarrel.
or.
misunderstandings over and over again.
or rather.
same old mundane routine.
always back to square one.
im just racing against time.
so strained.
the line is getting thinner.
or perhaps.
it just snapped.
i just realised.
its so hard to salvage a friendship.
to find a friend.
whom you lost somehow somewhere.
hah.
just random thoughts.
anyhow.
came across ken's blog.
heard a v nice song.
that is to me.
duno how the others feel bout it.
(:
Heartbreak Lullaby by A-teens:
Heartbreak lullaby...
In the still of the night,
I can almost feel you lying next to me,
Like it used to be,
And its hard to let go,
When there's always something there reminding me,
How things could be,
I've tried to get you off my mind,
I've tried to play my part,
But everytime I close my eyes,
You're still inside my heart,
Why can't I laugh?
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say good-bye,
Why does it rain,
Here in my heart,
Everyday that we're apart,
Why can't it be,
Just you and me,
What will it take to make you see,
These are the words,
To my Heartbreak Lullaby,
Like the stars in the sky,
You still keep on shining down you're light on me,
But out of reach,
And I know that in time,
You will come back to your senses,
See the signs,
And change your mind,
I try to look the other way,
And keep my heart on hold,
But everytime I'm close to you,
I lose my self-control,
Why can't I laugh?
Why must I cry?
Everytime we say good-bye,
Why does it rain,
Here in my heart,
Everyday that we're apart,
Why can't it be,
Just you and me,
What will it take to make you see,These are the words,
To my Heartbreak Lullaby.
Why can't I laugh?
Why must i cry?
Give me just one good reason why..
Why does it rain
Here in my heart,
Everyday that we're apart.
Why can't it be,
Just you and me,
What will it take to make you see,
These are the words,
To my Heartbreak Lullaby.
[CHORUS x2]
( credits to :
http://www.dance-lyrics.com/songs/heartbreak_lullaby_5356.htm )
just what will it take to make you see.
just what can i do to make you see why.
it will be long or never.
whywhywhy.
ciao.
BANGBANG
Friday, June 09, 2006
090606
today is a very special day.
happy 50th anniversary to hua yi! (:
50 years of history.
a history that came so far.
went to sch bout 2.
right after lunch and RELC course.
RELC was good (:
yepp.
talked to wei ting (sec 1).
trained with kai ting.
hmms. den wee.
went to sc rm to take a look.
blazer! =(
no chance wear blazer.
v smart leh they wear (:
oks.
den time to change alrdy.
hmms.
bout 5 plus.
we were on standby then.
hmms.
v nervous n excited.
finally..
the GOH came!
stylo car (:
den parade over.
well.
its over now.
after months of rehearsals.
complaints at times.
standing under the hot sun.
but i believe its v worth it.
and im v proud to say.
im actually involved in HYSS 50th anniversary.
im a part of it. (:
took many photos with NCC guys and RC girls. : D
lols. got real rifle and those swords u see at NDP.
dun play play. xP
plus state's flag and HYSS flag! * GRINS *
den i saw NPCC sec 4 seniors.
v touching scene (:
took photo with huey lee n eileen!
for the first time. v nice! (:
den hmms..
went to watch the performance.
cant see v properly.
cant hear anything oso.
so i sneaked up. LOL.
wee!
managed to see the whole performance.
when we sang our sch song during the finale.
i kinda cried silently.
yah. even i for once. didnt believe that.
the school i USED to hate.
has become one part of my life (:
yepp.
den quickly went down.
hmms. : D
took photos! (:
WEEEEEEEEEEEEE! (:
oks.
to be continued.
(:
happy 50th anniversary to hua yi (:
BANGBANG
Monday, June 05, 2006
hmms.
after i've read royce's blog.
my heart just wrenched.
back in yr 2004.
i was still in hns course.
i remembered there was this patient.
who used to sit at the table and draw.
patient as he was, he didnt care.
he drew beautiful paintings;
paintings of flowers.
and me.
i used to just stand beside him.
watching him paint, joke.
he even offered to draw one painting and frame it for me.
which i gladly accepted it.
he told me that it wld only be ready in oct.
and i wld need to go back and take that.
the me promised him i wld go back.
however.
i failed to honour my promise.
and now.
i just got to know.
he passed away last june.
to wait for a man who will never come.
its as good as waiting in the drought.
and i.
i didnt honour my promise to him.
uncle,
if u can hear the voices in me.
im sorry.
i failed to honour my promise.
i failed to visit you.
you treated me just like your daughter.
you told me to work hard for my future.
and i failed you.
im sorry.
I believe you will be happy with the Lord.
time waits for no man.
how true it is.
feeling much better alrdy.
thanks to sara n kar yan;
for their concerns(:
things are getting pushy.
and.
i've no better solutions.
than to run away and seek solace.
for now.
let me just take a break.
that issue?
long
over.
你给我的承诺像标本框里的蝶冰冷的睡 像永不再醒来的离别( if cant see. go view -> encoding -> unicode )
these two phrases.
taken from a song.
they are my favs.
the meaning is brought out i guess.
how i feel about it too.
if you promise to someone.
honour the promise.
for it is definitely significant.
BANGBANG
Saturday, June 03, 2006
my life's been way off line.
whole week having remedials.
plus. rehearsals.
hmms.
pretty tiring though.
but its definitely worth it. (:
ytd didnt go sch thou.
missed geo and physics.
plus rehearsals. -.-.
thurs night wasnt feeling well alrdy.
slight fever. ate panadol.
thought i wld be okay the next day.
end up. fever shot up to bout 40 deg.
felt v dizzy and all.
quickly went to see the doc.
i had difficulty walking.
can see how weak i am. -.-.
den waited v long la.
omg blood. o.o..
dr loi was quite shocked oso.
lols. he was like. 0.0. 40 deg?!
actually it was bout 39.
perhaps of the long wait.
den shot up to 40 ba.
the feeling of being sick.
shudders.
went home.
didnt feel like eating.
ate 2 spoons. full liao.
ate medicine. fell asleep.
fever went down.
today slight fever i think.
hmms.
now is major flu.
blocked nose. -.-..
how to go for rehearsal lehs.
pray that i wld be fine asap.
first time i got such a high fever.
all because of. yeah.
blah.
hmms.
i'll end here. (:
BANGBANG