Saturday, April 30, 2005
feeling nothing.
dun ask me why.
its in a mess now.
be it.
house.
studies.
blah.
u name it.
i wish to run.
run away.
but can i.
i can nvr understand.
oh yeah.
the workers are doing mah living rm windows.
u noe smth.
i hav a good mind.
to jus jump down frm dere.
cos the new windows haven been fixed up.
(:
well.
i know this will happen.
not dat i can predict the future.
but i know.
wad i hav done.
is done with.
and erased.
its not a portion.
but a whole of it.
it doesnt matter anyway.
none cares.
so be it.
yeah.
running.
cant solve the problem.
the thing is.
its been like this before.
fer 5 years.
after 5 years.
it didnt end jus like that.
and now.
i've tried fer 1 year.
its enuff.
the pain inflicted.
its enuff.
dun say i didnt try.
u dont know me.
dun say u understand.
when u nvr will.
laugh my lungs out.
being a pathetic kid fer so long.
slashed.
cut.
a substitute.
nothing more to that.
i know.
im negative.
yeahh.
the environment made me to.
i didnt choose this way.
perhaps sometimes.
im making a big fuss when im alone.
but tell me.
who likes to be alone.
unless.
u are having your own quiet time.
who dont like.
to mingle with their friends.
who dont wish.
to hav a friend.
whom dey can trust always.
where they are there for you.
tell me. who.
but well.
im used to being alone.
(:
what all of us see.
is the superficial surface.
u nvr see.
wad is hidden inside.
hahs.
trying to be a happy kid.
isnt nice.
dont try to be happy.
when u arent.
wake up girl.
you are alone.
dont live in the happy world.
and hav full of hopes.
only to know.
dey are destroyed by all.
thats the end of her story.
BANGBANG
Friday, April 29, 2005
hmms.
quite long didnt blog lerhh.
cos exams coming mahhs.
denn. busy lorhhs.
okaes.
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lols. study lorhhs. siann.
> den i go jul de house bath.
xDD
den ahhs.
i nvr do mah hw.
how to do lorhhs.
u cannot even find a space to sit down.
all mah study tables.
become eating table.
fork.spoon.shampoo.
u name it. we hav it. xDD
bo bian lorhhs.
now i go home late late.
xDD
yahhs. todae.
same thing lorhhs.
went jurong spring cc.
dah whole dae.
hees. jus came back.
xDD
waiting fer jul to call.
denn i go bathe.
hen siann lehhs.
at least.
i gort study lerhhs.
(:
hero is a nice song yeahh.
i like it alort.
HERO;
There's a hero
If you look inside your heart
You don't have to be afraid
Of what you are
There's an answer
If you reach into your sou
lAnd the sorrow that you know
Will melt away
Chorus
And then a hero comes along
With the strength to carry on
And you cast your fears aside
And you know you can survive
So when you feel like hope is gone
Look inside you and be strong
And you'll finally see the truth
That a hero lies in you
It's a long road
When you face your world alone
No one reaches out a hand
For you to hold
You can find love
If you search within yourself
And the emptiness you felt
Will disappear
Chorus
Lord knows
Dreams are hard to follow
But don't let anyone
Tear them away
Hold on
There will be tomorrow
In timeYou'll find the way
Chorus
long long journey oso nice.
dolphin by the bay.
hope i didnt name the show wrongly.
xDD
okae lahhs.
i go rest lerhh.
vv tired.
mah legs need a rest.
im physcially.
emotionally.
TIRED.
im jus a substitute.
(:
shann; forgotten; retrospect;
BANGBANG
Sunday, April 24, 2005
heys.
quite some tym didn blog.
okaes lahhs.
nothing much.
renovation works are starting.
ermm.
next thurs.
lols. yeahhs. 28/4
familiar mahhs.
of cosh. our fers paper.
im worried lahhs.
say dun haf is bluff de lorhhs.
stressed.
i wann to score well.
i must score well.
anyways.
i wun be online often.
or rather.
perhaps not online at all.
cos. i online oso no use liddat.
i away fer whole few hours.
oso nvr talk with anyone.
thus conclusion:
i can sort of.
live w/o msn too =)
anyways.
none cares.
why bother to explain.
well.
mah lyfe is.
studying.
sometyms.
i will sit down.
and do nothing.
but think.
and recall.
teary-eyed.
da damage is done.
i cant judge.
its not fer me too.
hav anyone heard of.
li sheng jie - chi xin jue dui
the lyrics are meaningful bahh.
okae lahhs.
siann lehhs.
renovation works.
sho dirty niahh.
how to sleep.
orh yahhs.
mah frend live near me derh.
say dah temporary toilet in out hse.
is VERY small.
den sometimes.
the door will open derhh.
>lols.
i go mah frend hse bathe.
dats mah plan.
xD
otherwise.
waste tym queuing downstairs.
jus to bathe.
i rather study can.
i feel.
im back to the past.
=)
im walking alone.
mah bolevard of broken dreams;
she is done with and erased.
RETROSPECT;
yeahh.
keep them.
and swallow.
hard.
i know.
accept it.
there is NO choice.
slowly but SURELY;
she is degrading off;
u wont understand.
good luck peeps.
mye coming.
takkaire loads.
ming zhi dao dang ni li kai ta de shi jie bu ke neng hui;
wo hai SHA SHA deng dao QI JI chu xian de na YI TIAN;
ni BU DONG;
wo de qiao cui.
since im redundant.
i will walk away.
(:
shann; forgotten;
BANGBANG
Sunday, April 17, 2005
todae-
study lorhhs.
went to church.
yahhs.
felt that.
lord spoke again.
well.
i dunch noe how to react.
i only know.
i bowed down sometyms.
during sermon tym.
denn.
went kfc with tina lorhhs.
lols.
we talked lahhs.
=))
her wristband is cool niahh.
keep walking*
god bless her journey to malaysia todae-
xD
went home lorhhs.
watched tv.
denn.
i go find all mah library cards.
LOL.
i thought i lost niahh.
xDD
waited fer mah sis to come home.
turn on dah com.
nthh muchh bahh.
mah main purpose is.
listen songs.
=))
saving grace*
nice xD
yupp.
denn went market.
bought stationaries.
limped home.
-.-..
looked lyk an ah ma liddat.
lols.
well. i look lyk one liaos.
doesnt make any diff.
=))
denn ate lorhs.
leg giving problems niahh.
nbm.
i shall walk lyk normal.
xDD
yahhs.
now watching nkf.
god bless all of dem.
kindly support nkf?
the least christians cld do.
is to pray.
the least people can do.
is to live your life happily.
=))
i blog.
budden looks like.
none see derhh.
lols.
if u got come.
tag can?
xD
if not.
i dun blog often liaos.
exams coming niahh.
i wann to score well.
now i wonder.
perhaps i can go jc.
why not give it a try.
xD
wenn i saw the babies todae;
i was reminded of;
mah childhood;
haas;
SHWEET INNOCENCE;*
part of a child;
somehow;
i wish;
im jus a small kid;
=)
erased;
BANGBANG
Friday, April 15, 2005
ermm.
todae hen siann.
lols.
in dah morning.
wanted take taxi.
alrites.
im NOT rich yeahh.
> cos mah leg.
and mah books.
LOL.
xD
budden anyways.
didnt manage to hail one lorhhs.
in dah end.
SQUEEZED onto 187.
=))
reached schh later den usual lorhhs.
hmms.
den peeps say.
mus hand in CRE todae.
well. i haven done lorhhs.
> <
after schh i alot of things to do.
was feeling kinda.
fustrated i guess.
had one period of maths.
time files;
i failed mah amaths log test.
budden.
surprise.surprise.
i got better.
den i expected.
hallelujah.
=)
den 2 periods of chem lorhhs.
seems like.
time crawls.
LOL.
xD
denn.
PE.
audrey;
heng arhhs.
todae no PE.
xDD
wahas~
1 hr and 5 min of recess.
dunch hab phy.
=)
budden im worried.
how much i got.
fer mah test lorhhs.
=x
mah chem test.
pass btw.
=))
heng~
den is 2 periods of amaths.
oso quite fast bahhs.
denn.
red cross.
lols.
i am not good with words lahhs.
so i hab much difficulty.
teaching the sec one kids.
FOOTDRILL.
>
not bad larhhs. jia you yeahhs.
=))
was late fer remedial.
shorrie mdm lye!
haas.
denn de two bois.
ask me do ray diagrams.
LOL.xD
den 3.30
went down red cross again.
saw NCC.
lols.
dah NCCs are there.
LOL.
xDD
denn.
sec 1s first aid mahhs.
sec 2 and 3 dunch nid.
denn i saw jeanette.
den i pei her lorhhs.
=))
had a hearty talk wif her lahhs.
xD
den went mama shop.
after dat.
went back 3E3.
ying quan. roxanne. audrey. samuel.
denn i do mah CRE lorhhs.
dat tym was bout 5 plus le bahhs.
finished mah CRE going to 6 liddat.
ying quan still doing.
> <.
after dat.
went home lorhhs.
saw jowell dey all on dah way.
went home.
BIANG ehhs.
something happened lorhhs.
it freaked me out ok.
im scared lorhs.
how come will happen liddat.
hais.
anyways.
we live in an imperfect. broken down world.
ups and downs are BOUND to happen.
sometimes;
fer no obvious reason.
obstacles will jus kip on cuming.
and u cant hide;
worried lorhs.
another problem.
im really tired le lorhhs.
mah leg how.
pain lyk siow.
if not ok by mon.
i mati liaos can.
i noeadays.
mah spine or back.
suddenly will hab.
SHARP pain.
walaos.
like needle niahhs.
poke and POKE.
in between lessons somemore.
> <..
tired liao lorhhs.
i wun think of dying le bahh.
as someone said.
the more u think of dying.
the more u WUN die.
den dun think lorh.
maybe in tis wae.
u will die naturally.
xD
i hope the incident.
dun happen again lorhs.
otherwise.
i dunch noe how i will react liaos.
unsafe in mah hse.
i wun be so free the next few weeks liaos.
mah exams;
den maybe.
i move hse lorhhs.
cos mah hse.
doing renovation works.
=))
it starts on 280405.
same dae.
as languages paper 1.
wad is there fer me tml.
i wonder.
i came into your life.
yet i guess.
i only gave nightmares.
jus lyk i give anybody else.
dats why.
i didnt leave any.
footprints your life.
i noe.
its ERASED;
shann;
all sums up to nothing;
god bless you;
BANGBANG
Thursday, April 14, 2005
changed mah blogskin lerhh.
nice mahhs?
do tag horhs.
xD
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lols.
i lost mah general blue file.
i thought i put in schh.
den i go sc rm find.
dunch hab.
walaos.
scared lorhhs.
ALL mah workshts can.
heartpain niahh.
somemore gort exco photo ok.
denn whole dae very sad lorhhs.
i dunch noe how to account to mdm lye.
cos most of the wkshts.
are maths.
denn whole day looked fer mah file.
hmms. still cannort find lorhhs.
sadded-
den afternoon.
i stae back in schh lorhhs.
do mah maths.
6+ me still in schh.
lols.
i was alone lahhs.
denn i think.
maybe general office hab lehhs.
but i didnt hab much hope.
cos mr lee helped me earlier on.
and dey sae dunch hab.
hmms.
i still went in thou.
den i ask the clerk.
"hi. erm. did anyone manage to hav found a blue file"
den she sae. blue box only.
den she let me see lorhhs.
LOL.
is mah file lai derhh.
xD
im so happy niahh.
she sae VP found it.
lols.
heng siahh.
i was laughing as i came out.
saw mr lee in staff rm.
den told him lorhhs.
lols.
=))
actually.
i was sad.
not only becos of the file lahhs.
hmms.
blahh*
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todae dunch hab schh.
xD
todae is sports day.
PLUS.
international frendship dae.
hmms.
kai sone;
happy frendship dae yeahhs;
god bless you;
den SC do the kite thingy lorhhs.
den i walk ard.
lols.
SC todae all wear BLACK.
the blackies.
LOL.
vv hot niahh.
and mah shirt.
is big lorhhs.
lols.
the medium is smth lyk.
large.
> <
lols. den SC sent 2 teams to run.
one team boy.
one team girl.
fer inter-CCA relay.
thou nvr win anything.
budden dey are really good ok.
xDD
dey 2nd last can become 4th or 5th.
not bad le lorhhs.
*applause*
denn.
dismissal liao lerhh.
was in search of.
KAI TING.
diao lorhhs.
i kept looking.
lols.
and i finally found her.
> <
denn.
waited fer NCC.
lols.
4 NCC and 2 RC.
lols.
me and kai ting were macham.
following dem.
lols.
den dey wann.
take taxi.
lols.
RICH NIAH
xD
go jp niahh.
take taxi.
lols.
pro xD
denn 3 NCC took 1 taxi.
me.kaiting.1 NCC.
took another one.
lols.
we were sort of competing.
which taxi will reach jp fers.
LOL.
their taxi went off fers lorhs.
BUT.
our taxi drove faster.
xDD
funnie siahh.
LOL.
denn.
went makan lorhs.
ben lai de purpose is.
dey treat us.
becos.
we helped NCC.
xD
in the end.
lols.
me and kaiting paisehh.
den we buy our food.
=))
cos ahhs.
the taxi fare.
NCC pay.
xDD
lols.
had kfc lorhhs.
nice~
saw sarah etc.
=))
den horhs.
lols.
we actually separate de lahhs.
den i went to life bkshop lorhhs.
kai ting was on the phone.
wen i came out.
she's with the NCC.
outside cinema dere.
LOL.
den she told me.
dey treat watch movie.
i was lyk. good fer u lorhhs.
den i say. okaes.
i go off fers?
lols.
at tis tym.
many NCC came.
junior lai derhh.
LOL.
den dey ask me oso.
wann to watch anot.
den i shui biann lorhhs.
okaes.
den they treat me niahh.
LOL.
good ehh.
got one vv rich derhh.
xDD
okae lorhhs. den still got tym.
we go walk walk.
these guy ahhs.
all go the sports shop derh.
den me pei kaiting.
she wann chg to pe-shirt.
den walk lorhhs.
den i vv siann.
was outside the cinema.
AGAIN.
> <
lols.
i saw XINNI.
xDD
zoey;
xinyi;
seok min;
and one more girl.
forgot who is it lerhh.
paisehh.
lols.
den i went wif dem fers.
LOL.
xDD
denn walk basement lorhhs.
nice ~
den was going up da escalator.
saw yi liang and one boi.
lols.
dah boi suddenly gave me dah plastic bag.
den i thought.
mus be ask me throw away derh.
-.-
LOL.
den yi liang sae.
got one more sushi lahhs.
i give u eat.
xD
i dun believe him.
LOL.
den i see inside.
lols.
really hab ahhs~
hannah.
thanks horhhs.
xD
den went to 3rd floor.
cinema again.
LOL.
dey hurry me niahh.
LOL.
den i ask.
so fast mehhs.
i though 2.30.
dey sae. can go in earlier de mahhs.
LOL.
den dey buy popcorn.
drinks lorhhs.
lols.
we sit dere.
den waited.
denn.
went in lorhhs.
xDD
LOL.
hmms.
6 - yung meng
7 - NCC
( i dunch noe how spell his name.
wei loong i think. xD)
8- kai ting
9- ME xD
10- meng chen
( i osho dunch noe how spell his name.
LOL xD)
11- NCC
12- NCC
haas. i think still hab bahhs.
dats all fer mah row i guess.
xD
its cinema num 3 btw.
=))
fers cinema i watch niahh.
as in.
during i grow up dat period of tym.
xDD
guess wad we watch.
THE PACIFIER;
LOL.
funnie siahh.
sho many commercials.
den the popcorn is like.
finishing.
BEFORE the show.
even started.
xDD
i told dah NCC.
finishing liao lehhs.
show oso haven start.
LOL.
he say.
haiyahhs.
later wenn show starts liaos.
cannot finish derhh.
LOL.
denn horhs.
yi liang dey all oso watch.
LOL.
xD
dey sat in front.
haas~
nice lorhhs.
funnie derhh.
its bout.
one soldier.
become babysitter.
xDD
nice siahh.
ending oso touching.
=))
den after dat.
went home lorhhs.
xD
took 187.
wif kai ting.
and NCC.
xD
i was dah fers to go off.
of cos lahhs.
2 stops niahh.
=))
thanks fer dah treat horhs.
v generous niahh.
de rest of NCCs arhhs.
dey took TAXI.
LOL.
taxi AGAIN.
rich horhhs.
LOL.
go home.
vv tired liaos.
mah mum rm not open.
mah sis haven cum bck.
denn i slept.
lols.
den open door lerhs.
i came in and blog.
=))
changed mah blogskin too.
lazy to update dah links.
and profile.
xD
will do it.
wenn im free.
xD
kae lahhs.
i go revise mahh work.
exams coming niahh.
nervous*
=))
thank god.
i found mah file back.
thank god.
fer letting me know.
u dunch care at all.
all sums up to.
NOTHING; *
BANGBANG
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
lols.
happie 15th burfdae!
hui xin ( sec 2)
khamisah;
richie;
samuel;
BEST WISHES;
oh yeahhs.
3 3E3'ians bdae same dayy.
lols.
fate ehhs.
xD
todae.
got chin test.
lols. mah chin cher set derh.
diao. tough niahh.
okok lahhs.
LOL.
xP
had a period of chem.
den went to staff rm.
lols.
small ronald say im lyk dancing.
cos. i help ppl call fer chers mahhs.
lols. farnie lahhs he.
lols. ronald ahhs.
u ask me leave one piece fer u.
den u nvr come.
-.-..
haas.
den.
no cher came.
i called ms wan.
den i rushed in.
chiong ahh~
lols.
went sc rm
paiseh niahh.
dey all sitting down dere lerhh.
i bought fruit fan cake.
lols.
heng arh.
everyone ate it.
LOL.
i noe why.
cos healthy mahhs.
xP
den not bad lorhhs.
alright.
im proud to say.
3E3 won 3E2 fer soccer
xD
4: 1
overall.
haas. yi liang scored 2 ?
hannah. u clever lahhs.
LOL.
todae.
nice lahhs.
tml.
e maths test.
oh yeahh.
mah a maths.
watch me flunk it.
lols.
confirm derhh.
logarithms.
one word.
LOL.
exams coming lerhh.
siann.
hais.
god bless you lahhs.
currently listening to;
gui ji;
jay;
i love it;
xD
oh yah!
happie burfdae SHI HUI;
hope u lyk the present yeahhs.
xD
pray hard.
shirley*
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