Sunday, March 11, 2007
you know?
friends make a part of me.
without them,
i wont be here.
i just went online.
happily.
with the intention of asking my friends out.
one of them actually had her bday.
i wanted to celebrate together with them.
u know?
ever since O' level results are released,
i hardly talk to them, let alone seeing them.
i thought,
next week is a vvvv good chance for me.
to me,
both of them play a VERY important role.
i emphasise, very.
i know they can do without me,
i know to them, im insignificant.
i know, yet i dont care.
i know, im just the odd one out.
i know, yet i dont bother.
why?
becos i cant do without them.
even we have alr graduated.
they are still a part of me.
but i guess,
they dont know.
she told me,
she wanted to meet her some other day.
which meant,
she wanted to meet her alone.
i thought of having lunch together,
sitting down and catch up.
but apparently,
it's just on my part,
it's just my wishful thinking.
as i re-read what she typed,
it felt daggers stabbing me,
again and again.
as much as i want to meet up,
i said, "its okay, forget wad i said bah."
those words,
evoked tears that blurred my vision.
i sat in a daze, in front of the com,
before typing this entry out.
so..
i mean nothing to you?
my heart went downhill.
i guess she wont be reading this too.
even if she did,
hope she will understand.
fug world.
fug graduation.
or rather,
im a friend,
not worth to be remembered.
thats what i really think so.
bye.
BANGBANG