Monday, May 29, 2006
blog collecting dust.
: D
oks.
hmms.
today is chin O's.
whoa.
serious man.
the whole mood vv different.
ytd night toss and turn.
cant sleep much. =x.
actually i felt ok de leh.
den at night start to get nervous.
hmmphs.
ok la.
considering that my palms didnt sweat today.
means i didnt panic!
which means. i am v calm.
which means. hmms.
i did the best i could?
yeahh. lols.
but my preparations.
can actually be better ba.
btw arhs.
my index number.
0088 lehs.
LOL.
i told my mum.
she go buy lottery. LOL?
heh hehs.
i expected it de la.
LOL.
kinda lucky ehs?
maybe ppl say superstitious.
but hmms. jus for luck ba. : D
v easy to remember oso.
but i think. num will change ba.
heh hehs. nvm la. at least. i ONCE had the number (:
a big thank you to those who wished me well.
i prayed before i started doing the paper.
of cos pray for all in the hall (:
the paper was all right. : D
not bad not bad.
hope i can score ba. (:
now wei jian playing bball match.
against whye nam.
nanyang csc ACE. heh hehs. : D
prays his team can win!
* cross fingers *
a pity its at ang mo kio cc.
if at boon lay. can go watch liao.
LOL. : DD
still got wad lehs. hmms.
ohs my friend!
a v pro sec 4 boy. : D
he did qn 1 and 4.
if i do qn 4. sure die. (:
he say he crap.
but he can crap alot leh.
somemore is can score de points lohs.
* blink blink *
liddat not crap liao lehs. xDD
pro right?
i wrote qn 5.
cos qn 3 and 4 i dun really have confidence.
so dun do lorhs. qn 5 instead. : DD
hao.
hmms.
v busy during june holidays.
lols. hope can cope. (:
xD
perhaps its me who dun get it.
well.
like i've thought bout it before.
repetition of history.
if its not simple.
den as you wish ba.
i respect your decision.
me being stubborn.
will get me nowhere out of this situation.
same thing.
IF it doesnt matter to one party.
why should i bother so much.
oks.
dont let this get me.
jia you arh wei jian!
moral support ^^ : DD
lols.
im talking to the air. -.-.
lots of things to do.
yet so lil time.
so near.
but yet so far.
shrugs.
silence.
what will happen next?
its for you to know.
for me to find out.
ciao. (:
BANGBANG
Friday, May 19, 2006
back.
shant say much bout exams.
afterall.
what's done is done.
exams taken. results given.
what more can i do.
thanks xinni for her encouragement (:
>3 her loads (:
and so.
yeahh.
i guess.
i need a day to sort out my thoughts and all.
in fact. v disturbing ones.
actually.
i tried v hard to be happy.
laugh and all.
i just hope i can be optimistic bout it.
just like people say.
its just the MYE.
learn from mistakes.
and work really hard for prelim.
xinni oso told me.
prelim = one last chance.
O levels is the stage for performance.
the big day.
whilst prelim is just akin to the last full-dress rehearsal.
and i shant waste my time away anymore.
it is indeed very disturbing.
when mrs chong asked me.
why did i fare so badly.
because to her.
im hardworking.
at that point of time.
i was asking myself.
yah. why.
am i really working v hard.
tears almost fell.
but i swallowed it down.
it was hard.
really hard.
its time to start now.
10 days to O levels chinese.
just for chinese.
it has always been my strongest subject.
not v fantastic marks.
but i believe i can do better.
its not whether you get knocked down;
but whether you are willing to pick up from where you fell.
life is about learning backwards;
but working forward.
thats what i chance upon today.
realise something new.
and.
got it from sara's blog.
with her permission.
' time will never wash the pain away;
if you keep holding onto it. '
therefore.
this is what i think.
' if it must pass. let it go. '
no use harping on the same issue.
im tired.
you are tired.
what for.
im tired running after you.
you are tired of this chasing-running.
in the end.
we are still back to square one.
whats the point?
i stubbornly refused to let go.
you just tried so hard to run away from me.
thats what i feel.
so. in the end.
i choose to let go.
i'll give you the freedom you always wanted.
its always hard to say goodbye.
talking to ronald now.
thanks ronald for ur encouragement (:
yeahh.
i will not let these marks take over my confidence. (:
thanks for your concern.
you might not see this.
but thanks (:
alright.
i'll end here.
(:
BANGBANG
Thursday, May 18, 2006
expected it.
i failed geo.
i thought i'll flunk.
but well. i manage to fail by a few marks.
thou its a fact i failed.
at least. i didnt fail miserably.
so i guess.
will jus scrap thru the total grade.
tis time round.
i dont expect to pass fantastically.
honestly.
i didnt work vv hard.
you reap what you sow.
since i didnt work hard.
i can only blame myself.
i promise to myself.
i will work during this june holiday.
serious mugging.
the fear of getting back results.
is becos im not prepared.
if this is my O levels.
im done for.
MYE is definitely my wake up call.
i believe its never too late.
i did study.
but i didnt put in 100%.
i can do much better.
serious mugging must be done.
im sad. yes i am.
but i can only blame myself.
nvr study hard.
now den panic.
what's the use.
i believe God has been vv kind to me.
i thought i'll flunk geo. probably. 30+
cos. i only managed to study ss.
and its just. abit.
Thank you God.
i may not be a believer.
but Thank you.
i'll just hope.
that i wont flunk that bad.
althou.
i can guess what's the marks.
esp for a maths.
well.
whatever will be; will be.
i've got to stop procrastinating.
really.
you reap what you sow.
very true indeed.
you can get lucky once. twice.
but not everytime.
so. yah.
blah.
neway.
thanks to:
steven
yan qing
constance
li huan
susanna
ty ty
for today.
i enjoyed being with dem.
saw yan jie n kai xian (:
saw mei qi.
my pri sch best friend.
well. at least to me. (:
tckare ppl.
whatever will be, will be.
yeah.
i end here.
(:
BANGBANG
Tuesday, May 16, 2006
im back.
lols.
HAI.
tis fri.
my doomsday lohs.
giv bck papers ma.
zz.
i will see many many red marks. : X
im pretty sure.
so.
GOD BLESS (:
z.
im v bored lehs!
nobody to talk to.
i think i will write some stuff.
to my friends. (:
13 days to O levels chinese.
again.
GOD BLESS (:
hao flooding partner!
hee.
she offline liao. > <
duno whether she will see tis.
but.
hao flooding partner!
we had fun right.
xPP
hao hao.
im am really really bored.
i shall go n write stuffs now.
: D
last day of exam liao.
today.
8.20 jiu finish CL listening.
LOL.
funny ehs.
go to sch for 20 mins.
so..
bo liao me went to take 99.
and took a round.
LOL.
reach home. bout 9 plus. close to 10.
STILL V EARLY.
lols. no choice.
i lazy go market.
xD
btw.
DAVINCI CODE.
anyone? xDD
okays.
tada.
BYEEE (:
BANGBANG
Wednesday, May 10, 2006
take a risk.
take a chance.
make a change.
bad sore throat.
z.
2 more papers to go.
or rather. 3 more.
CL paper 3. -.-.
YAYNESS.
im gonna flunk so terribly.
: DDD
june holidays.
oso wont enjoy de la.
neway. im going to pia.
BUT.
see first ba.
LOL.
shirley ahs!
stop procrastinating.
yarh.
im lazy la.
the papers are not really tough.
esp sciences.
hmmphs.
oh well. jus work harder next time.
no procrastination at least. (:
all right.
last 2 papers for the week!
jia you ehs.
: DDD
off to do work. : P
byee. (:
ESCAPISM -->
you jus gotta move it on.
BANGBANG
Saturday, May 06, 2006
DING DONG.
my god la.
z.
fustrations beyond comprehension.
exams are more important.
HAY.
whatever.
BANGBANG
Thursday, May 04, 2006
exams.
i guess everyone is somehow stressed up in some way.
im not so tensed up like before.
but yeah. worried.
why it did have to happen.
why it all have to end.
today is a.maths paper 1.
all i can say is.
work harder for paper 2.
sitting alone to think.
i find. changes are come and go kind of thing.
ppl just go in and out of your life.
at least. in my life rather.
looking back.
there were things i missed out.
there were people i lost.
there were close friends.
but somehow.
the friendship between us just soured.
because of stubborness.
i tried to get them back.
but nevertheless.
it somehow got lost somewhere;
or it was gradually forgotten.
all i know is.
none of us intended to bear this burden.
i couldnt accept it at first.
the question was.
WHY?
but somehow i realise.
at a particular point of time.
some things when missed.
you can never go back.
some friends when lost.
you can never get the
same old them back.
the me that i was.
is not the me that i am now.
i guess this principle applies to each and everyone too.
people move on.
they dont go back.
once you know.
you know.
you can try to deny.
but no point.
deluding urself? what for.
happened to chance upon a book just now.
travelling light.
it says, " release the burden you never intended to bear" .
i read it over and over again.
thought bout it.
i agreed.
why bother.
if ur efforts are not appreciated.
why cry.
when you just meant to help.
thats how i tell myself.
i remember.
how about you.
im closing the chapter.
you cant be bothered.
i am helpless.
its hard to fathom.
find a way now.
fight against all odds.
can i.
BANGBANG
Monday, May 01, 2006
yeah. im back.
life's pretty like. no life?
so yep.
im so dead.
flu. cough.
just before exams?
bless me ahs.
somehow.
i dread life now.
lol.
why insist things that will never return?
why.why.why.
shrugs.
i've got no answer either.
i kept my faith.
for?
i duno.
perhaps this is life.
ups or downs.
choose it.
u decide.
(:
MYE coming.
havent really prepare.
well.
best of luck. (:
somehow.
i look forward to post-sec life.
was discussing with sara.
but. on the other hand.
i miss my friends.
hmms.
vene!
she haven send me kai sone's photos..
all i have with me is.
self-made statues?
not really statues. 3 animals.
she made it herself.
really nice (:
kai sone where are you?
i still remember you yeah.
remember the hotdog bun?
remember taka?
(:
memories.
looking back at my diary.
often den enuff.
i wld always say.
yeahh. forever.
honestly.
i meant to be forever at dat point of tym.
but somehow.
memories wld either be blurred.
or jus faded.
jus like friendship.
somehow it got lost.
or jus forgotten.
hah.
this is life? (:
n now den i realise.
i've been 7yrs of friends with gervina.
lol.
i thought it was ken all along.
=x. yuan lai is gervina.
actually.
i have friends with me since P1?
hmms. jus contact thru msn.
speaking of P1.
i hope to find him back. (:
hope you are living well n all.
okay.
xinni.
dun drink vinegar? =x.
i >3 you oso la. really. : D
hehs. (:
ESCAPE.
BANGBANG