Wednesday, July 26, 2006
hey.
back.
long hiatus.
not really. just busy.
involved in speech day rehearsal.
prelims just 4 weeks away.
shudder to think about it.
turning 16 soon.
not thrilled about it.
just.
i grow another yr older.
more challenges to face.
sometimes.
i guess im just making things difficult.
not for anyone.
but for myself.
i dont know why man.
for wad i make myself fustrated.
when it doesnt matter.
dont ask me why.
me myself. i dont know the reason.
first of all.
i disclaim.
im not targeting anyone here.
just. how i feel.
in the years to come.
will you think about the moments that we shared?
taken from a song.
say goodbye - s club.
while replaying over and over again.
flashes of the past.
just yeah.
in a year from now.
maybe there'll be things we wish.
we never said.
v true.
it can be forgiven.
but never is it easy.
to be forgotten.
just like a broken vase.
nothing will turn back.
JUST for you.
sometimes.
its just destiny.
yours. its yours.
not yours.
it will never be.
now.
i can say.
im making things difficult for myself.
but perhaps.
wo hui hao guo yi dian.
i will feel better.
maybe.
we shall see.
things just got too good for comfort.
and now.
things can get.
downhill as fast as they can.
just. in a blink of an eye.
everything happens for a reason.
for all can say im unreasonable.
but if you dont understand.
dont judge me.
you can never depend on just one side of a story.
or rather.
what i think.
what i feel.
my own perceptions.
indeed.
you dont agree with me.
its fine.
dont bother arguing with me.
FOR.
its my OWN view.
say i think too much?
ever wonder.
what made me do so.
again.
you have your reasons.
i have my way of reasoning.
in that way.
can you say.
im stubborn, by just thinking.
im thinking too much.
i shld accept wad you are explaining.
sorry.
i dont take that anymore.
how i treat a person.
no matter how unreasonable i can be.
trust me.
there is always.
always a reason.
whether to you.
its reasonable. or not.
up to you to judge.
crudely as i put.
even if i leave you behind.
even if i move on.
even if we arent friends.
you dont give a damn.
you can say how sad you are.
how you keep inside.
but remember.
im no better than you.
the pain i feel.
its just.
anguish in silence.
or rather.
you are probably just saying you are sad.
for the sake of saying it.
hah.
thats all.
simply put.
after all these.
u know wad.
i give up.
really.
i surrender. totally.
shirley finally surrenders.
* throws confetti in air *
perhaps you are.
laugh out loud.
i'll move on.
i hope.
emo entry.
pardon me.
so say goodbye.
but dont cry.
ciao.
BANGBANG
Sunday, July 09, 2006
heyy.
im back.(:
lols.
long tym no update ehs.
hmms.
nth much really.
sch reopened alrdy.
2nd week?
yepp.
hectic life.
tuition. homework.
weekdays are just rest.
lol.
hmms.
on fri.
4E2 n 4E3 vs 4E6 with some 4E5 i think.
heh hehs. 4E2 n 4E3 won! xD
although win by penalty.
still win mahs. (:
vv happy for my class. xD
yaya. i love my class (4E3) (:
love it truckloads. : D
my eyes arh.
like v sensitive siah.
v easy red.
cham liao.
-.-..
later ppl thought sore-eye.
hehs. random crap. : D
hao hao.
lemme think.
oohs.
youth day celebration last wk!
LOL. vv nice can. xDD
the chers.
talented in music and arts.
dun play play. : D
singing not bad de okay. : D
how bout they sing and teach us?
LOL.
im dreaming lahs.
wait long long oso wont have. xP
hmms.
xinni say hohs.
our graduation day somewhere aug.
hmms.
our prelims are like end of aug.
O levels oral for english - 11 aug onwards.
hmms.
maybe not aug. hehs. xD
i dun wan so fast oso lahs.
so fast say bye bye.
how can. -.-.
i thought it wld be like. oct?
before our O level mahs.
zzz.
dun talk bout it.
all the leaving and stuff.
later sad again. -.-.
(:
oh yahs!
i killed a rose on youth day.
zz.
v guilty siah.
one nice rose.
rough shirley went to touch it.
and BAM. whole thing pluck out.
super siah. -.-.
so not gentle can.
lol. ' chor lor ' in another way. xD
hmms.
im turning 16 soon!
heh hehs. (:
going to be older liao. tsk.
lols. xD
and and.
today is hafizah's burfday!
i noe she wont see this de lahs.
but still.
happy burfday to her!
(:
few more days.
two more people turning 15. : D
firefly by A teens v nice!
heh hehs.
if free i post up the lyrics. (:
hmms.
i help xinni advertise.
support milubing! : DD
LOL.
xinni.
dun say i not good hohs. ^^
oks.
get ready for tml.
byee! (:
BANGBANG