Saturday, April 30, 2005
feeling nothing.
dun ask me why.
its in a mess now.
be it.
house.
studies.
blah.
u name it.
i wish to run.
run away.
but can i.
i can nvr understand.
oh yeah.
the workers are doing mah living rm windows.
u noe smth.
i hav a good mind.
to jus jump down frm dere.
cos the new windows haven been fixed up.
(:
well.
i know this will happen.
not dat i can predict the future.
but i know.
wad i hav done.
is done with.
and erased.
its not a portion.
but a whole of it.
it doesnt matter anyway.
none cares.
so be it.
yeah.
running.
cant solve the problem.
the thing is.
its been like this before.
fer 5 years.
after 5 years.
it didnt end jus like that.
and now.
i've tried fer 1 year.
its enuff.
the pain inflicted.
its enuff.
dun say i didnt try.
u dont know me.
dun say u understand.
when u nvr will.
laugh my lungs out.
being a pathetic kid fer so long.
slashed.
cut.
a substitute.
nothing more to that.
i know.
im negative.
yeahh.
the environment made me to.
i didnt choose this way.
perhaps sometimes.
im making a big fuss when im alone.
but tell me.
who likes to be alone.
unless.
u are having your own quiet time.
who dont like.
to mingle with their friends.
who dont wish.
to hav a friend.
whom dey can trust always.
where they are there for you.
tell me. who.
but well.
im used to being alone.
(:
what all of us see.
is the superficial surface.
u nvr see.
wad is hidden inside.
hahs.
trying to be a happy kid.
isnt nice.
dont try to be happy.
when u arent.
wake up girl.
you are alone.
dont live in the happy world.
and hav full of hopes.
only to know.
dey are destroyed by all.
thats the end of her story.
BANGBANG
