Thursday, May 04, 2006
exams.
i guess everyone is somehow stressed up in some way.
im not so tensed up like before.
but yeah. worried.
why it did have to happen.
why it all have to end.
today is a.maths paper 1.
all i can say is.
work harder for paper 2.
sitting alone to think.
i find. changes are come and go kind of thing.
ppl just go in and out of your life.
at least. in my life rather.
looking back.
there were things i missed out.
there were people i lost.
there were close friends.
but somehow.
the friendship between us just soured.
because of stubborness.
i tried to get them back.
but nevertheless.
it somehow got lost somewhere;
or it was gradually forgotten.
all i know is.
none of us intended to bear this burden.
i couldnt accept it at first.
the question was.
WHY?
but somehow i realise.
at a particular point of time.
some things when missed.
you can never go back.
some friends when lost.
you can never get the
same old them back.
the me that i was.
is not the me that i am now.
i guess this principle applies to each and everyone too.
people move on.
they dont go back.
once you know.
you know.
you can try to deny.
but no point.
deluding urself? what for.
happened to chance upon a book just now.
travelling light.
it says, " release the burden you never intended to bear" .
i read it over and over again.
thought bout it.
i agreed.
why bother.
if ur efforts are not appreciated.
why cry.
when you just meant to help.
thats how i tell myself.
i remember.
how about you.
im closing the chapter.
you cant be bothered.
i am helpless.
its hard to fathom.
find a way now.
fight against all odds.
can i.
BANGBANG
