Wednesday, July 26, 2006
hey.
back.
long hiatus.
not really. just busy.
involved in speech day rehearsal.
prelims just 4 weeks away.
shudder to think about it.
turning 16 soon.
not thrilled about it.
just.
i grow another yr older.
more challenges to face.
sometimes.
i guess im just making things difficult.
not for anyone.
but for myself.
i dont know why man.
for wad i make myself fustrated.
when it doesnt matter.
dont ask me why.
me myself. i dont know the reason.
first of all.
i disclaim.
im not targeting anyone here.
just. how i feel.
in the years to come.
will you think about the moments that we shared?
taken from a song.
say goodbye - s club.
while replaying over and over again.
flashes of the past.
just yeah.
in a year from now.
maybe there'll be things we wish.
we never said.
v true.
it can be forgiven.
but never is it easy.
to be forgotten.
just like a broken vase.
nothing will turn back.
JUST for you.
sometimes.
its just destiny.
yours. its yours.
not yours.
it will never be.
now.
i can say.
im making things difficult for myself.
but perhaps.
wo hui hao guo yi dian.
i will feel better.
maybe.
we shall see.
things just got too good for comfort.
and now.
things can get.
downhill as fast as they can.
just. in a blink of an eye.
everything happens for a reason.
for all can say im unreasonable.
but if you dont understand.
dont judge me.
you can never depend on just one side of a story.
or rather.
what i think.
what i feel.
my own perceptions.
indeed.
you dont agree with me.
its fine.
dont bother arguing with me.
FOR.
its my OWN view.
say i think too much?
ever wonder.
what made me do so.
again.
you have your reasons.
i have my way of reasoning.
in that way.
can you say.
im stubborn, by just thinking.
im thinking too much.
i shld accept wad you are explaining.
sorry.
i dont take that anymore.
how i treat a person.
no matter how unreasonable i can be.
trust me.
there is always.
always a reason.
whether to you.
its reasonable. or not.
up to you to judge.
crudely as i put.
even if i leave you behind.
even if i move on.
even if we arent friends.
you dont give a damn.
you can say how sad you are.
how you keep inside.
but remember.
im no better than you.
the pain i feel.
its just.
anguish in silence.
or rather.
you are probably just saying you are sad.
for the sake of saying it.
hah.
thats all.
simply put.
after all these.
u know wad.
i give up.
really.
i surrender. totally.
shirley finally surrenders.
* throws confetti in air *
perhaps you are.
laugh out loud.
i'll move on.
i hope.
emo entry.
pardon me.
so say goodbye.
but dont cry.
ciao.
BANGBANG
